I've come to realize a lot in the past week after not having a phone for a few days and then having a phone that is as slow as molasses. Here they are in no particular order.
- looks aren't everything
- phones are our life line
- we are all distracted, even if we think we aren't
- my hubby is my yin to my yang
- I'm exhausted
- If you have an updated phone that works, be completely grateful
So picture this. I drop my phone for what seems like the thousandth time. I look down at my phone moments later, and see that my phone screen has weird lines in them. I know something isn't right, but believe that if I just ignore it, it will go away. You see, I purchased a lovely phone cover, with bright colors to make me happy, ignoring the fact that having an otter box is definitely something I should have with young children and a phone that is my life line for work. Looks definitely aren't everything, and I have finally learned my lesson to only have a protected phone cover from now on, even if I don't like the "boxiness" of the cover. I can handle a boxy phone rather than ever going through this process again.
As the day went on, my phone screen started to go black. I was definitely headed into panic mode, but went to the store to figure it out. Of course, I went there and they didn't have any Iphones at the store due to the launch of the Iphone 7, so I decided to tough it out and wait until the new phone came, which was on back order! Long story short, I went home and thought my phone would last until my new phone went out. Well, not so much. It decided to go completely blank that night and I was without a phone. It's disheartening to not have a phone when you have 2 little children, but I managed to survive the day without one.
You see, I am quite mindful of being on my phone all of the time. I make it a point to not stare at my phone and do the mindless scrolling in front of my children, but guys, I use my phone for EVERYTHING! From listening to spotify while cooking dinner, to texting my hubby, to finding the recipe I was going to cook on pinterest. I could go on and on. I thought I was not as distracted, but I was wrong!
We are all distracted all day everyday, but it's the way of life.
Being mindful and aware of it is all we can do, right?
When I say I went into a panic mode, I am putting it lightly. My hubby was definitely the calm to my storm, and helped me come up with a plan. We found my old Iphone 4 and he brought it to the store to get it connected to my number. That was a step in the right direction, but OH MY, phones have changed a great deal since then. Phone conversations get cut out every couple of minutes, and typing an FB post took 10 minutes instead of 2, but yes, be grateful I have a phone to even use.
We all have moments in our lives when it feels like life is falling apart.
And, yes, it might sound dramatic to say my phone dying was bringing me down, but it was! In moments like this, there are always lessons to be learned. I like to ask myself what is the lesson God is trying to teach me. I might not always like it or accept it right away, but understanding and knowing it was meant for me is helpful, and acknowledging it is a step in the right direction.
Oh yeah, and by the way, I'm exhausted. That one I just had to add in, as, well I am, right along with all of you other moms out there, man there are days when I would love to throw in the towel, but we don't. We keep going. We do, because we're Moms, and that's what Moms do.