Say what?!?! I’ve been sitting with this one for quite some months. It’s a celebration yes, but it’s a holy $%(! how did this happen moment!
I have to admit that when I first realized that this birthday was creeping up I went into full panic and admittingly self shaming. Yes, positive me, and mindful me went into full panic.
You see, something a lot of people don’t realize is that even if people speak/teach positive thinking, or mindset work, we still have these voices creep back in. It’s something that we constantly work at and work through to find peace. It certainly gets lighter and less extensive but it will always be there in some sense. Just when I think I have it figured out something comes and sneaks in and before I know it, I open my tool box and work through it all.
Here I was a few months ago thinking, I’m no where I thought I would be at forty. This was mainly in my career and my finances. It crept up and put me down like you wouldn’t believe. A lot of journaling, meditating and talking with my dear friends that see me fully, helped me see it for what it was.
My inner mean girl was back and in full force.
I am successful. I have so much in my life that I was not realizing. I prayed and prayed for what I have right now, but now I have different prayers. Now I have different goals to seek. Are they here yet? No! But when I was praying before they weren’t there and I still believed they would be there. It’s not my timeline.
This is my chapter and I’m pretty damn proud of where I am.
Is it exactly where I thought I would be? No, but are we ever? Shifting my perspective into gratitude saved me. I am ready for bigger things and I do believe that this year is my turning point. I feel a shift coming on and I’m ready to welcome it with open arms, but here’s what we have to remember:
You have to take the steps to get there. Without the middle there is not end. (and is there really ever an end??) You are exactly where you need to be right this very moment.
So for my 40th birthday I wanted to make a list of 40 things to accomplish this year—some big, some small. I would love for you to join me for whatever birthday year it is for you! I’m going to sit with my favorite writing playlist, a cup of my favorite coffee, and a wide open journal with 1-40 numbered. Stay tuned—I will be sharing to keep me accountable! Let’s do this together friends!!!
Sending so much love,
PS in celebration to my fortieth birthday I am running a special for our monthly live workout membership! $4 for the first month and $19 after that! You get access to 3 live workouts a week, always different and always inspiring! We talk all things mindset and have mini challenges to work on our body, nutrition, and mindset. I have 9 spots open for the month of April, so don’t wait!! Coupon code is forty <3 CLICK HERE to sign up now!!!